The funny thing about being away from people, at least for me, is that I begin to idealize them, forgetting how annoying they are. For example, while gone at Amen, I was away from Miss Nana and began to think about how wonderful it would be to see her and how sweet she was, etc, but the moment she arrives that happy little image of her is immediately shattered as she begins her normal habit, of which I had forgotten while she was away, of teasing our neighbor about various boys and giving her “shocked” squeak at the mention of any boy who she could possibly have a “crush” on. I really hate it when she does it, and I KNOW what she means by those little shrieks, and she sounds horrified at the thought of her actually “liking” so and so, and she acts as though she hates being teased, she actually enjoys it, for it makes her feel special. I KNOW, because as I am extremely embarrassed to say, Miss Nana behaves exactly as I a couple years ago, though she is a little more outspoken and bold than I was. I really wish I had not been like that, and realize now how damaging that sort of thing is to boy-girl friend relationships.
I can’t believe I just wrote that down.
Please understand that I’m not trying to be mean or say nasty things about Miss Nan, for I dearly love her, but it is because of that love that it really makes me sad to see her treat the opposite gender in such a fashion, and she doesn't listen to me when I try to tell her that.
I really, really wish that Nana wasn't so much like me!! :(
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